I woke up with a tingle yesterday morning. Now that in itself could be construed as positive. This particular buzzy, annoying prickle was coming from my upper lip. I prayed it was just a pimple, but as the day wore on, and the blister grew, I knew I had another case of shingles.
These blisters have a nasty habit of appearing on my face, just around my smile. They grow into an oozy strawberry patch and I become a hostage on the hill, not wanting to share the stares of onlookers. Shingles comes from a strain of chickenpox that never leaves our system and can be activated by worry, fear and stress.
Hmmmm...
Now, if you've been reading this blog with any regularity you know of my struggles and that I continue to write what I'm grateful for so that I will change my focus. Since starting this practice life really has offered me many opportunities. I am standing on the dock ready to launch a few boats. I am strong, courageous and sure, a little nervous.
Something I have learned from my mentors is to acknowledge the fear, not just gloss over it with a Polly-Anna smile and sugar coated anger. Really feel what the worse case scenario could bring and let it resonate within. Allow the anguish and loss to paint a picture of diminished abilities and feel the limit of what we control.
Then...
Do something about it. This starts with attitude. What thoughts need to change from surrender to survivor? What words are in our head reminding us of past failures instead of the valuable lessons we've learned from each endeavor? This is why we undertake the encouraging action of reciting affirmations, writing out a gratitude list and begin to see our world as hopeful and full of promise.
Even when one has shingles caressing their smile...
What I am grateful for today:
I am grateful that all the income opportunities that I have before me can be conducted by phone. I do not have to camouflage facial blisters with an inch of stage makeup.
I am grateful for this incredible product line that I've been using which offers potent benefits that I can apply directly to my upper lip. There is so much diversity with this company, I can also do laundry, clean my floors, ease arthritic ache, spend less and make money without leaving the hill.
I am grateful that I have been here before and know exactly what to expect. Especially when the blisters get so big that it feels like my face will be permanently scarred. It won't, I'm happy to report.
I am grateful that I'm not bed bound. I have had shingles probably 3-4 times and the pain had always limited my movement. It's like having the worst flu symptoms. Knock on wood and a habit of being grateful, I'm upright and in motion.
I am grateful to know people in the medical profession who can treat me without having insurance.
I am grateful for this mindset of persistence. Yesterday I worked on my goals for Twenty-Ten and orchestrated my action steps accordingly. Today I will transfer this data into a spreadsheet and begin launching my income opportunities.
I am grateful for all the roles I've had throughout my life. Now as I move forward wearing a few new hats, I can look back on familiarity. I am a great multi-tasker who performs well when my hands are full.
I am grateful to all the people in my life who continue to encourage me and love me. No matter what. Thank you for riding through this life with me.
I am grateful for another Southern California day. The forecast boasts temps of almost 80 today. We have bright blue skies and the ground is starting to green after the much needed rainfall of late.
I am grateful to have all that life gives me. I stand on my rock and shout at the heavens, Thank You! I appreciate all that the universe is trying to teach me.
Coach Be
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